Hillsong’s Inside Out seems to be a theme for me in regards to answered prayers. The answered prayers that are most memorable feel as if a battle was attached to them. After reading a bit of the history behind the lyrics I came to a deeper understanding of why I relate this to my answered prayers.
“‘From the Inside Out’?” he asks at the outset of the conversation. “That song is probably the hardest song I’ve ever had to write. I’m not entirely sure why. It’s possible that it’s because ‘From the Inside Out,’ more than any other song I’ve ever written, is the essence of me really gaining a revelation of who Christ is and what it means to be a follower. I feel like when I look at the lyrics of that song, it’s me unpacking everything I knew to be true about God at that period of my life.” ” Joel Houston READ MORE HERE
My personal relationship with Jesus has been a lot about trust and surrender in the past decade. Remembering God’s faithfulness continues to bolster my confidence, and it also reminds me that I have a long way to go in the area of faithful response.
Provision: Private school, cars, moving, surprise pregnancies, house repairs. Oh, the financial frustrations that occur in 15 years of marriage. Every time things have looked as if bills will go unpaid God shows up big time. I’ll admit that there is usually some floundering on my part that likely delays God acting, but none the less, God has always kept our lives stable. Abraham’s faith in God as a provider in Genesis 22:13-15 is such a perfect reminder to us. God will provide, it just may not look exactly as we desire it too.
Justice: Exodus 14:14 has always been a promise I’ve clung to. Moses reminds the Israelites that it is not their actions that will save them, in fact, they can stand still, and God will fight for them. Life is filled with people acting poorly towards each other. I’ve had my fair share of this happen to me, as I’m sure I’d done to others as well. I’m not great at Grace, and this verse has helped me remember I’m not in charge of when and how it’s given.
Sustained Health: “I am the Lord who Heals” Exodus 15:26 Two surprise pregnancies resulted in two premature babies 20 months apart with a massively sick thyroid and liver. Many times I cried out for God to help me, to sustain me, and to lead me to the right resources. Eight years after our oldest son’s birth our move to Virginia lead me to an amazing endocrinologist. The more I hear about my body, and the more my medical records are reviewed it’s become very apparent that it was God alone who made me functional on a daily basis. Interestingly to me, my health took a deep turn for the worse when we moved, and I had to reach out to find a new doctor. I can’t help but feel that God is not sustaining me with the use of modern medicine and deeper knowledge. Regardless, as Mat Kearney sings, He is the air I breathe!
Peace: Figuring out life direction isn’t always easy. In fact, sometimes it feels like a flat out guess. As my desire to hear God clearly has become more earnest I’ve realized his peace covers me in my choices. As a large leap of faith begins I’ve found a calmness overwhelms me. I’ve even been told I’m acting weirdly, and it is weird because the covering of God’s peace allows me to surrender fully.
Direction: This often goes along with peace, but it is a consistent prayer in our lives. What is next God? Whether it be to figure out what ministry to serve in, what college to apply at or what jobs to accept and decline, God has always given us a helping hand in keeping us on the path of his call for our lives when we’ve asked. This doesn’t mean we’ve never wandered because we certainly have. In fact, sometimes God’s help in directing our paths has been a big ‘ole door slammed shut.
I’m linking up with Mrs. Disciple today for #FridayFive